AuthenticWoman

I have been smiling to myself about diets.

So many people have been feeling a bit sorry for me being hungry all the time, and have been advising me to drink water to help stave off the hunger.

Well, that is a fab idea, except half the time, my 'hunger' isn't real hunger. It is pure greed. I want that sweetie! I want that biscuit! It is the sugar craving more than the hunger that is so hard for me.

I woke this morning feeling slim. I'm no slimmer than I was yesterday, but the bulk of me seems to have shrunk in the night. Some sort of psychological barrier, perhaps. My belt is still on the same notch!

I walked up the drive to the bin this morning. The sun was splitting the sky, belting down like an oven door was open (I was out of the wind). I stood with my face upturned towards the sun, my arms akimbo, my palms open to the warmth. I could feel the rays of the sun soaking into my aura and warming my soul, feeding my own light. The kids ran out of the house and stood beside me, eyes closed, faces upturned, hands open to the light. Then the school bus drove past. The driver must think we are weird pagan type sun worshippers I feel grounded, and floaty at the same time.

I made the mistake of weighing myself the other afternoon. Normally I weigh myself straight after my bath in the morning, before breakfast, before getting dressed. The afternoon weigh-in - I was fully clothed and had just eaten a large meal. Big mistake. I was convinced I had spent the whole week starving and lost nothing.

The good news is - I was wrong. I have lost 2lbs. Yay me! I do *feel* lighter. My clothes don't particularly feel less tight, though. Probably because they were all too tight, or elasticated

At the weekend, we swapped Rachel's bed into Laura's room because it was the top half of the bunkbeds, and we had decided to build them back up in Laura's room. Rachel got Laura's bed, and I got my office back, because the bottom of the bunks was taking up space in here. My office is now back to being a lovely size with patio windows now clear. We couldn't open the floor length curtains very well because the bed was in the way.

Rachel is upset because she can't get her teddies on her bed anymore. She used to have bars all round, being the top bunk, and her teddies didn't fall off. Not so now. She has a 'proper' bed in there.

Laura is upset because she feels enclosed and she can't get her pictures up on her wall. However, her teddies now have their very own bed - the top bunk.

Anthony is upset because he wanted the bunks in his room. Unfortunately, he has a double bed that is too big to go into either of the girls rooms. It is also WAY too good a bed to get rid of. It cost me £500 and is the best sleep in the house.

Anyway, the house looks like a bomb has hit it, so my job today is to try and get some order back into the chaos.

I have just realised that I started this blog in 2007! So much for my 'new me' resolution. I am still the same old me as I was back then, only with more wrinkles and more clothes.

Yes - all that hard work, clearing out my wardrobe, and all it inspired me to do was buy more clothes to replace them.

Actually perhaps not the same old me. I have trained up to Reiki Level II, I am half way thru my aromatherapy course, I am training to be a gymnastics coach.

I have 11lbs to lose and I started yesterday. I cut out all my between meals snacks. I am eating normal breakfast, a slightly healthier lunch and tea, having an apple mid morning and a banana mid afternoon. I *cannot* believe how hungry I was yesterday!

Let's see if I can't inspire myself to do better than I did back in '07, eh?

Oh, and this originally started as a 'friends only' blog, but I can't be bothered with that now. Actually, I can't remember why I did that in the first place!